Life
What a series of life events has come lately. I’m not sure how to respond and not sure what to say. I feel the need to write my thoughts down and rather than do it for other people, I find I need to write them for myself. it may relate it may not relate that is not the point the word says we need to meditate on the word. Selah (stop and meditate) Things (life) is moving at such a rapid rate I don’t know how to adjust to the “speed of life” all I know is that I must spend time in the word and spend time before the Lord. The only way to keep the condemnation of personal failure at bay is to spend time soaking in the grace of God. It’s somewhat paradoxical. We don’t spend time with the Lord because or should I say I don’t spend time with the Lord many times because I fell condemned, but the only way to not feel condemned is to spend time with the Lord. Knowing and believing that “I am the righteousness of God in Christ” gives me the confidence to approach the Father with out fear of rejection that I’m am being judged and rightly judged. Not like the judgement that comes from other folks. They Judge out of experience. Rom. 2:1 talks about “Therefore you are inexcusable, O man, whoever you are who judge, for in whatever you judge another you condemn yourself; for you who judge practice the same things. ” God knows I have a bunch of experience.
This Morning I was reading my daily reading from http://www.biblegateway.com/reading-plans/old-new-testament/today?version=NKJV I love the Psalms…when you don’t know what are how to pray and communication with the Father seems to be busted head over to the Psalms, always the right stuff there. Anyhow the passage there in 27:13-14
13 I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
14 Wait on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!
I have been in the land of forgotteness — the place where i no longer believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord. What a place of despair, and emptiness. It is the message of Grace that is allowing me to get back to believing — note that it has never been anything the Lord has done, it was my accusation of the Lord and buying into the enemies accusations against the Lover of My soul. I get frustrated and tired of waiting on the Lord. The Psalmist encourages us to wait and be of good courage and we will see… get it WILL SEE!!!! the goodness of the Lord…where? in the Land of the living…Ok I know I’m going to see the goodness of the Lord in Heaven.. in His presence, thats a no brainer right? It’s here and now where it’s the eve and flow the up and downs of life where I loose sight. One will never loose sight of… never have a Peter moment in a glorified body, mind and soul, environment. When I finally settle down, Sit down, rest in the finished work of the Cross of Christ… then my heart is strengthened.
Lord help me to wait…to quit being so anxious and doubtful. To know..to believe that I will see Your goodness, hear and now. The Favor of the Father on my life and children on my family and on the people of the Body of Christ. Thank you for your un ending, never failing Love.